14 years ago I left corporate lawyering in Manhattan after just over 2 years. This was the kind of job “everyone” wanted after law school. I was full of excitement about it & a year in found myself wondering why anyone wanted this job. There was a part of me that was fighting to reclaim myself that felt smothered in my work life…which at that time was my whole life.
I didn’t want to live a buttoned-up life anymore.
Many in the life saw the change I made as irresponsible & were very vocal about their feelings. I heard a deeper voice…I heard the voice from within me that said “go see the world.” I listened to that voice…
I headed to Africa. A friend & I bought a 1984 Land Cruiser in Durban, South Africa & spent the next 10 months driving through Southern & Eastern Africa living out the vehicle that we fondly named, “The Beast.” That was 2003.
This led to more travel as a traveler photographer for a few years. Then putting down some roots down with my husband in Asheville, NC.
As I reflect back now on that choice to leave corporate lawyering I know that it was Soul Necessary.
In my travels I began to hear the whispers of my intuition again. I know She (my intuition) was always there but Her voice had gotten muffled in the chaos & noise of my day to day. She wasn’t valued in the arena where I was playing so I lost trust in her wisdom.
I got caught up in thriving in my individual eco-system & it had confined me. I would do the same 4 steps on my small dance floor & I could not see how it could be different. I could not see beyond my wounded loop!
Once I started to clear away some of my old stories the dance floor got bigger…I could see more steps…then I had choices…this was freedom!
There are still moments when I end up in one of my wounded dances but my relationship with that dance has shifted. I tend to stay in the loop for less time & not let it suck me in so deep.
This is NOT a siren call to quit & throw yourself out into the world with a backpack & a camera. BUT if you are feeling constricted, it is a call to create a space for your clearing of the old & creating space for your new.
A few years ago there was another Soul Necessary moment ~ that aching within ~ to get intentional around honoring my divine feminine. For me, it was a call to stop dragging my business along & doing my wounded masculine dance over & over. It was time to stop utterly depleting my energy & find a more aligned way to show up.
It was time to name my old stories, clear them & create space rather than recreating my betrayals & deepening my wounds.
Now, I work with women in transition that are desiring to stand more fully in their true power & commune with themselves and their intuition. I am committed to the momentum of moving forward in the collective & for myself.
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